live and electric
October 2005

unfiltered album thoughts:
As Hanson has begun to lose their pull on my thoughts, like a piece of chewing gum I've been chewing on for more than 8 years . . . not because I've lost my interest in the band or because Hanson has lost their talent. But simply because the constant chewing starts to wear thin and you spit it out or because it's dinner time and you move on.

Either way, when the drop date of the new album came and went and I was still waiting for my Amazon copy in the mail, I considered, "Should I head over to Best Buy and boost sales just for old times' sake?" I decided to spend the evening preparing baked goods for some friends who are going through a rough pregnancy and one who is going through chemo after her leg was amputated.

But when I listened to it for the first time last night, I realized that the allure of a new Hanson album, is the flattery. Let me expose my vainest thoughts, which no other band's album could ever trigger. These thoughts are all based on my baseless theory that Hanson not only scours things I've posted about them, but actually makes decisions based on my opinions.

Honestly, it's annoying to read this assumption in other people's tones, but I want to come clean and admit that although the music can still reach me it's the self-congratulations that adds that extra element of attraction. I feel that my narcissism is bolstered by the fact that an independent Hanson means the decisions are in the hands of the band. Every decision is potentially a personal note to fans.

Enter my delusions, if you dare:

  1. The album cover is sepia-toned and black-and-white. How many times have I ranted against stylized, overtly posed close-ups of the band's faces as the major marketing tool in album sales?
  2. "Optimistic" gives long-time fans the illusion that after years of bending our ears to understand Taylor's mumbling in song--his own lyrical language--we've finally mastered it. Not only that, in a cover in which he speaks in coded messages of his angst.
  3. "Every Word I Say" included as the second song is a nod to the fact that I hoped to hear this song after the Navy Pier concert, and then was subsequently swept away by it in Kalamazoo. Not to mention, that it turned the engine for me before just about every concert last summer. Was it last summer?
  4. "Where's the Love" and "Look at You"--the "I knew them when" factor is "off the hook" (reference to their most recent dvd.) Anyway, what devoted fan doesn't chuckle and comment, "They LOVE that song! Oh how they love it" when it comes to LAY. (c;
  5. "Strong Enough to Break"--Maybe you won't admit it, but there's a certain "Name that Tune" in 2 notes pride when it comes to old-school Hanson fans. And this song is an excellent example since it plays incessantly behind the back of the menus on one of the fan club cds they sent out. Not to mention, it's an old favorite--so meaningful, heart-felt, PERSONAL!
  6. "I Will Come to You"--This is my most embarrassing admission, so bear with me. My original aol screenname was "dknstormy," which was a joke for me since I originally thought it would be reference to my bronze skin color (I'm Asian) and the fact that I have an unexplainable penchant for stormy weather (the kind where nobody gets hurt, naturally!). Anyway, even though, the screenname selection was not based on an overwhelming love of IWCTY, I feel that this song selection is somehow personal props from the band, an understated acknowledgement. I'm SO vain!!

    Sidenote: I also find that "Look at You" and "I Will Come to You" have hilarious, unintentional at the time they were written?--possible references to intimate behavior. Therefore their selections from among any other "Middle of Nowhere" tracks to be included on this album, is Hanson's way of acknowledging that fact and embracing them both, now that they're adults.

  7. "Underneath"--I have this unhealthy fascination with the pause in the line, ". . . the fear of losing you beneath my pause skin" . . . I feel it is pivotal to the impact of this emotion. Well, as you can probably guess, it sounds like Taylor makes a deliberate, conscious effort--takes pains, if you will--to linger over that pause in this version.
  8. The persistant inclusion of "Hand in Hand" in any Hanson publication makes me simultaneously laugh and groan out loud. We all know how much the band loves this precious song, but it now has that "If you only heard it one more time, you'd get it" desperate quality to it now. Get over it--people either love it or hate it. It doesn't grow on anybody.
  9. I am probably the only person who cringes when I hear Taylor sing "In a Little While." For all the times that he has dedicated it to his wife, specifically--it's no secret that it is special to the two of them. I really don't care to have the mental images of why. Especially since the song possesses a sensual quality. Too much information.
  10. "Penny and Me" At this point, who doesn't smile and wonder about the significance of Penelope in Taylor's life . . . You wonder if this name was like the name Seven to George Costanza. Who knew? I also happen to love this song, however. It's the lilting quality of the music and the "don't take a breath until the bridge" challenge of the first and second verses. Fun for people with too much time on their hands.
  11. "MMMBop"--My adoration for this song is unshaken. I would never "Stop the Bop" even to raise money for hurricaine victims. Don't get me wrong, I am as much of a sympathetic American as the next person . . . but I am simply not going to Stop the Bop!
  12. "This Time Around"--As a person of faith, I still think this song contains some of the band's most overt references to their faith. I am probably wrong, but it's how I feel and since the purpose of this list is to display my hubris in regard to Hanson and their music . . . well, there it is.
  13. "Rock 'n Roll Razorblade" . . . I have nothing to say about this song. So the band likes this song.
  14. "If Only" and "A Song to Sing" are sentimental bonus track selections. The only thing that would have truly sealed the deal for me, would have been if the band included the concert version of "Thinking of You" which is among my favorite upgrades of any Hanson song at a concert. Love this concert version.

  15. And the final most vain connection, I felt with "Live and Electric" was the concept behind the "underneath" video. This is a link to a journal article I posted in March 2001, before I knew the album title of "underneath": life underground.

    The video seemed to have direct references to the rhizobia roots, quoted from one of my favorite books, Barbara Kingsolver's, The Bean Trees. Not only that, "underneath" has always spoken to my feelings of having been adopted and the inability to really communicate that although "they say there is nothing love can't heal" you still feel "underneath."

By the way, the concert instrumentals were really fun to hear undiluted by the screams and conversations. However, I'm not sure concert albums are my thing--I go to concerts to hear the band LIVE, in person, with other people who connect with them in the same way I do. This is lost when I listen to canned concerts from a stereo. However, the fact that Hanson loves to share concerts with people who can't make it to them, is again endearing.

Well, there you have it, the darkest corners of my heart exposed. Please share yours if you have the time.

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